A Blurrrrrr Me....!!

I received a call from Aishah of Cosmopoint yesterday evening..ermmm..but cant remember the exact time of her calling. She mentioned that I passed the exam...exam??what exam??the last exam I sat was 3 years ago... and the weird thing is, this is first time I heard Cosmopoint got something to do wif me. Yes...Cosmopoint, a building (Wisma Sachdev) next to my office...to refresh, our conversation goes something like this:

Aishah: Hello...Boleh saya bercakap dengan Cik Noor Azmah?

Me: Ye saya

Aishah: Saya Aishah dari Cosmopoint. Saya nak inform yang Cik Azmah telah lulus exam semalam

Me: Huh?Exam?

Aishah: Exam yang Cik Azmah duduki semalam untuk menjadi antara peserta yang terpilih untuk mendapat biasiswa bernilai RM 14K untuk menjalani IT Specialist Training selama 6 bulan.

Me: Owh,yea...now I remember..Alhamdulillah. So....,?

Aishah:Adakah Cik Azmah masih berminat untuk meneruskan dengan tawaran yang diberikan?

Me: Yes, why not..apa prosedur selepas ni?

Aishah: Actually, Cik Azmah baru saja melepasi stage yang pertama, stage yang kedua akan diadakan interview bersama dengan wakil dari kerajaan.

Me: stage yang kedua?

Aishah: Seperti yang dterangkan dalam taklimat skop kerja (job briefing) semalam.

Me: Oppss...sorry saya tak attend job briefing tu sebab saya terpaksa balik ke office atas urusan kerja.ok..takper, then biler interview tu?

Aishah: Macam tu...tapi takper saya akan terangkan nanti.Interview tu akan diadakan pada pertengahan Mei nanti tapi tarikh & masa belum diputuskan oleh pihak kami lagi. Kami akan hubungi Cik Azmah untuk diberitahu mengenai tarikh dan masa.

Me: Ok takde masalah..thanks for the info

Aishah: Sama sama..

Actually the conversation was quite long but I make it short & simple..hehe..I was blur that time when she mentioned about the exam but then I can see the clear picture of what she was trying to tell me...What a blur me!..simple thing also so difficult to understand. This thing always happen when I am too tied with something; work,responsibility,etc.Too many things inside my mind..a mixture of everything &*#@$>^+.

Should or should not I proceed with this?...

My feelings after being informed that I have passed the exam, for the truth I felt happy but unhappy on the other side because if I were being accepted to this program:-

1. I have to quit my current job at PricewaterhouseCoopers (Cosmo needs my full time commitment for 6 months).. how about friends??gonna miss them so much

2. No more monthly payment like I used to get.. (sob..sob..sob)

3. I dont have the oppurtunity to work at PwC's new office @ KL Sentral. (heard rumours - move on August)

4. No more "Administrator" title

Whatever it is, Alhamdullilah (praise to Allah) for His Bless. If this is the path that He chose for me, I believe it is the BEST and I'll accept it with OPEN HEART....